Thursday, June 3, 2010

Stop the Ride...

... I want to get off.

I'm tired of the roller coaster. I was so worried the past week about Kingsley not making milestones, then beyond ecstatic yesterday and today about how AMAZING he's doing! And now I've horribly crashed.

I googled. Why oh why did I feel the need to google, I have no idea. I can't even talk about what I googled because it was just bad news and I have no idea what I was actually reading or whether it's true... it just broke my heart for Kingsley though. I think I need another SB break.  Stop reading, stop thinking. Just be with Kingsley and leave it at that.

Blah. I hate stinkin' Spina Bifida.  I am now going to drown my sorrows in frozen no-name Cool Whip.


  1. Oh bummer...NO! No no no Google for you!
    Remember the usual disclaimer on all that you googled though..."all children are individuals and will grow and come to be themselves in their own individual way." kingsley has sb and he doesn't know anything different...keep him pointed in the positive direction and just love him up. that's all he needs from don't need to google that to know that....
    call me to talk it out if you want...and seriously - lay off the google, unless of course you want to type in 'seriously chubbers, cutest wee boy' and of course you will see the Kinger! Love him up for me! xo

  2. I totally hear you...
    always remember you are stronger than you think, sending hugs your way :)

  3. I have a love/hate relationship with Google too so I would be a total hyprocrite if I said "dont google". Just Remember that Google has never met Kingsley--he's amazing (I know I sound like I've met him but blogging and babycenter has a way of bringing total strangers together and feeling like family!) anyway, just sending hugs! Holli

  4. I'm so sorry. The roller coaster of highs and lows can be so tough. I find that googling although provides "some" information it mostly just makes we worry. When you are ready I hope you will post here or on the SB kids board so others can share their experience with whatever has you so worried.

    Sending you positive thoughts for a worry free weekend.


  5. I agree with Holli! Google has *never* met Kinglsey! He is an amazing individual who will make his own way through his life, with his mighty momma at his side!

  6. google smoogle,

    just love him and enjoy him in all of his perfectly wonderful babyness :)


  7. I'm totally there with you!
    Google and Wikipedia are evil (sometimes). I really really try to not google things but sometimes I can't help myself and then get depressed about what I read.
    But I agree with everyone that each kid is different - and we all know that Kingsley is a rockstar!
    Go back to celebrating your rolling baby and how adorable your family is.


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